WenWen: My Achievement : Long time wish CFA Level 1 :)

When everybody were so busy with listing and ticking their wishes and goals lists at the end of the year, I still have nothing came out in mind, except one, yes, only one, my exam result, which I needed to wait till end of next month. So day by day, I tried to get it off from the mind, engaging myself with something else, with works, homeworks, spring cleaning, trading, and etc. Finally, the date came closer.

It was one day before the announcement date, and I received one email from CFA Singapore which advertising about preview for CFA Level 1. Freaking myself, I started to lose confidence and all the questions came to one conclusion, ‘was it mean I didn’t pass the exam?’. Hubby tried to calm me down, saying it’s random emails and just believed that no single parties received results faster than the candidates. Even help me to check with others, and I also sent a message to one of my good friends, Mel. She told me not to be worried, that one was sure a random email.

- 22nd Jan 2013 -

Trying to calm my mind, and less than 24hours, I would receive my exact result. I read lots of comments in linkedin groups, which everybody around the world who also enrolled in the exam, spoken out their minds, their worries, their feelings, everybody seemed to be so unmindful with their activities within that 24 hours, only filled up with curiousity of “what’s my result?”. I did agree with them.

Rushing home from office (my in laws were in town that week) after having our dinner, had a bath to feel more relax, then occupied my seat in front of my computer since 9pm. Result would be out start 9am est which was 10pm Singapore time. I googled everything, from blogs, groups, websites which related to dec 2012 exam. Hubby even had set up my email notifications on “real time update” so that we would be highlighted instantly in the desktop when there was a new coming email.

10 PM! I kept refreshing my linkedin CFA group, checked out all the comments in website. Still nothing! Everybody also had a same feeling, waiting tensely. 15minutes later, one by one started to give a comment “pass, fail” which I saw more pass words than fail. I was still waiting mine, and heart beat faster and faster minute by minute passed. Till 11pm, I still didn’t received mine and started to think “was it because my result not good, so that the one who passed being informed first then followed by fail results?”.. Hush away my mind, then anyhow when Hubby and me looking for new comments, suddenly the new coming email flashed out “from CFA” and I managed to look on the shorten sentence, something like “we are pleased..”. I stunned for seconds..

Hubby told me quickly to go to emails and read, and he rushed to click and read and we both screamed! Yah, I was stunned and suddenly all memories flew back to my mind, 5 months spent to those books, fighting each day to read, to learn, to understand, to memorize, everything,, Even recalled the times when I was so frustrated with the materials.. Finally I did it!! I wanted to cry, wanted to burst out my fear, my proud, my everything that time.. But I couldn’t. Didn’t know why, maybe I was still in shocked and probably I have a feeling about the outcome's probability.

I then texted my daddy, told him that I passed. He also quickly woke up and told mommy about my result eventually. He replied me he was so proud of me, and even wanted to post in facebook. *blush* I told him that this was only the 1^st step, there are 2 more steps to go and before that I need a supporting path to get the designation. A lot of things need to be planned. Anyway, I feel happy that I still can make him and mom proud of me. Too long time never achieved anything that needs relentless effort like this, and still I can prove it. To others, this maybe just a little thing, but to me, it is something. :)

I also feel so happy that I can make my hubby proud, who support me day and night without ever complaining me and he gave his hands a lot, especially through my desperate and struggling time. Finally his sacrifice not to watch tv, or watching movie with earphone only, and off course to understand my up and down emotion which sometimes without reasons, all being paid very well. He hugged me tight before I fallen asleep. Thank you baby. :)

Sis has been fallen asleep waiting me when I came to bedroom, she quickly wake up and asked me how. I just kept quiet and seeing my teary eyes, she hugs me and said it’s ok, it’s ok and almost cried together. She thought I didn’t pass! I just laughed and said ‘pass!’. She then laughed and grumbled ‘how dare you hidden it!’. Anyway, thank you sis for your support all these times. :)

I messaged three girls of mine about my result, whom always supporting me while in my preparation time. Thank you. :)

I am so happy, recalling that day and 5 months time I spent, proud. I’m building ‘a proud’ feeling about myself. I still can achieve something. :)

Time to list my wishes and goals again, and hopefully I have something new achievement to be posted again this year ;)

Ps. Tomorrow is the last day of lunar calendar of 2012, we’ll fly back home and enjoy our big meal with family and off course, spending the new year time with our precious family again! Happy Chinese New Year in advance!!

* Pics when one week leave for preparing the exam ^^

* Pics taken at dinner time, after finishing exam.. (My swollen eyes because of crying after getting out from the exam hall. Mixed feeling, exam was so difficult!)